Some fun at Radio France

Dear Friends,

Back in May, I had the pleasure of recording Beşyol, a fantastic new work for harp and electronics by Christopher Trapani with the folks at INA grm and France Musique.

Over the course of next week, two minutes of the piece will be broadcast each day in succession, as well as various interviews and perspectives shared by Chris and myself (with rather appalling French on my part, so apologies in advance).

Huge thanks to Anne Montaron, Pierre Charvet, Allison Ascrizzi and Elsa Biston for putting it all together. Huge thanks also to Camac Harps and the guys at Espace Camac Paris for making a wonderful Canopée available for the performance.

And of course, enormous gratitude to Christopher Trapani for the neat piece.

Tune in / stream at Création mondiale – Alla breve, sur France Musique, Monday – Friday at 12h55 and 22h25. 

Cheers,

Parker


Program Notes for The World Harp Congress

A note from Alice Goodman

The religious imagination makes what it needs out of what it’s given. You may not have been among the crowds that filled Jerusalem during that first Holy Week; you may have been born in a different age. Never mind. You can make the pilgrimage, walk through the streets, pray, and you are there. You may not be able to manage the pilgrimage. Never mind. Go down to church. Around the walls there are fourteen images of the Stations of the Cross, the Via Dolorosa recreated for local use. Walk around them, pausing to pray. Imagine you are there, in that time and in that place. Here is this tiny schematic scene; a picture or a carving. What is in it for you? What do your senses tell you? You are to be attuned to every vibration of guilt and sorrow, love, and boredom. The membrane between the religious imagination and the erotic imagination is semi-permeable, incredibly thin. This is what St Robert Southwell SJ (1561–95, martyr and poet) acknowledged when he wrote, ‘Passions I allow and loves I approve, onely I would wishe that men would alter their object and better their intent.’

The Street is a set of meditations on the fourteen traditional Stations of the Cross. That’s what attracted me to the project. Traditionally, each Station is given a meditation and a prayer. You look at the image, you hear or read the meditation, you say the prayer: you take it in and move on. Writing these texts was the kind of technical challenge that as a librettist I’ve always found liberating

A note from Nico Muhly

When writing The Street, I realised that the initial challenge was going to be treating Alice’s text not as a libretto to be set (as, of course, it wasn’t one), but as a set of meditations containing clues to how the attendant music might sound. In this sense, the texts do function as a sort of hidden ritualistic play, themselves referencing a ritual, itself referencing a single afternoon in history. The presence of the plainchant provided other, more subtle sources of material. It became immediately clear that I needed to work with a set of “reference images” — musical building blocks which could act as touchpoints along the route of the piece: The Cross, The Hands, and Holding.

STATION I
Often, a single line of text provided the starting-point for the music: when Jesus is condemned to death (Station I), Goodman describes the crowd shouting crucify him: “the pitch dropping as it passes where you stand.” The harp, in turn, plays a modern version of the same, a kind of digital-delay effect, where the pitch creeps down the scale. These two chords — a minor chord falling into a hollow suspended chord — outline a highly abstracted cruciform shape, and this Cross motif appears in various guises throughout the piece.

STATION II
“Remember the carpenter’s work” suggests an honest, folksy labor, work done with the hands. Alice’s text often point towards the quotidian nature of burial, of making, of working, and here, the music is unaffected and simple; over it we hear echoes of the chant “Crucem tuam adoramus, Domine” (We adore Thy Cross, O Lord). These simple chords come to represent dirt, the ground, the trees, and work done with the hands.

STATION III
“These are the street sounds of Jerusalem, layers of them, all the various accents and dialects of those come up for the Passover; throat-clearing, street vendors, laughter, excuses, curses.” Here, the noises of the street are the primary focus. The texts almost ignores Jesus entirely, having the effect of making us focus on him even more. The harp functions as a clattering, gossipy instrument here, with only occasional nods towards the man silently falling on the ground.

STATION IV
A cradle song and the music of Holding. This theme, expressed here in its purest form is less about pitch or harmony, but about rhythm; it is a rocking song, berceuse, which is subjected to various manipulations in later movements.

STATION V
“Your cross is the cross of forced labour; your yoke chafes and your burden is as much as you can bear.” A lumbering, awkward ostinato underneath fast and agitated music. A nod towards the Holding music finishes the movement.

STATION VI
Veronica, looking at her sudarium, notices that “He is printed in molecules of blood and sweat,” and hears a chord, diffused and delicate, as if seen under a microscope. I wanted this to feel businesslike and almost scientific; I rememer reading about the teams of people who go around “verifying” holy relics and what an extraordinary task it is to do this specific kind of forensic work. The chords attendant to the “silent man” in station III reäppear here, imagining Veronica as an old woman, quietly contemplating the cloth.

STATION VII
A narrator — all of us, perhaps — causes Jesus’s second fall: “My fault. I put out my foot and tripped him. What can I say?” and the harp responds with a bullying, rhythmically intense unbroken set of shifting, stumbling gestures. The harp plays aggressive, mocking, almost siren-like gestures coming in and out of focus.

STATION VIII
This is the most explicitly chant-based movement, in which much of the chant “Filiæ Jerusalem” (“Daughters of Jerusalem, come and see this martyr wearing the crown...”) appears verbatim. Each phrase is offset by a gentle, reassuring gesture.

STATION IX
Station IX is the most thematically interwoven of the movements: it begins with a fall in super slow-motion, always incorporating the Cross motif both as harmony and, eventually, as the doppler-effect phrase we heard in Station I. “Jesus, there he is, on hands and knees among the broken vessels” suggests a return of the manual labour music, over which a new tune emerges; this is the only time I set one of Alice’s texts explicitly; the line “However low I fall, let me not fall far from you” is played by the harp, but could be sung in the right context. It is repeated thrice, interrupted by the Cross motif in violent, blocklike chords.

STATION X
“Are you ashamed that your eyes are drawn irresistibly to the centre of the picture? You want to see, see for yourself, despite yourself. You want to see the organs of generation, the sign of full humanity, vulnerability, and covenant.” As in station VII, this text implicates us and accuses us. The music is jagged, but the line “His knees are skinned like a child” suggests a memory of the cradle song. The chant “Astiterunt reges Terræ” (The kings of the earth rise up, and the rulers take counsel together, against the Lord, and against his anointed) appears briefly.

STATION XI
“The nail sinks into flesh, descends through tendon, bone, wood. And another. And another, and the rich, ferrous smell of blood.” The harpist plays with a guitar pick or credit card or other plectrum, creating a strange, otherworldly, metallic sound.“The man knows what he’s doing. This will hold” invites a perverse statement of the Hands motif: it is the soldier’s job, and he is working with his hands and with wood, but it is terrible work.

STATION XII
This is essentially a harmonisation of the chant “Tenebræ factæ sunt” (Darkness fell...) broken up by loud, violent interjections. Alice’s text asks, “Later they said that that the sun was eclipsed, the veil of the Temple torn, the dead rose from their tombs. Maybe so. Isn’t it enough though that he died?” The harp, nodding towards this, plays a kind of thunder effect, which is immediately brushed aside to return to the simple work of the plainchant.

STATION XIII
She writes: “Two men on ladders, one with the pincers to pull out the nails. Gently. Not that gentleness matters to him now, but not a bone shall be broken. This is not the kind of work we’re used to. Let’s get it done before it’s too dark to see,” and in station XIV, after the moment of death, we focus on the practical work of getting the body into the tomb; we don’t yet know what the rest of the weekend holds. The music in XIII is procedural, slightly wavering, and obeys a sort of functional logic; it consists of simple chords over a single repeated pitch, and the steady tempo of ritualised work.

STATION XIV
“Before sunset and the appearance of the first star in the sky, just before the beginning of the sabbath, two men enshroud a body. Never have they done this work before. Though well-versed in the laws and traditions involved in the task, their hands lack skill. Wash the body. Lay it out. Fetch the clean linen cloths.” It starts with the Holding music, the enshroudng of the body rhyming with the swaddling cloths thirty-three years early. Goodman ends her meditations with the Mourner’s Kaddish, and the harp, having played a remembered cradle-song chastened by more recent memories fast forwards an hour, and ends with a vision of the night sky, punctuated by three statements of the Cross motif, finally de-knotted and allowed, after a fashion, to resolve.

The Street
Alice Goodman

1. Jesus is condemned to death

Did you expect it to go any other way? It makes a difference though to hear the words clattering out into the waiting room. The weight of the apprehensive moment. Yes, but he could have died at any time. He could have been stillborn, or slaughtered with the Innocents. He could have died on the road, or of sickness, or by accident. He was always going to die. Conceived as our mortal flesh, he bore our infirmities. Yes, and we killed him deliberately. We put on the black cap and pronounced his death. ‘Take him out and crucify him.’ There’s the Doppler effect in the crowd below, shouting ‘CRUCIFY HIM! CRUCIFY HIM! CRUCIFY HIM!’ the pitch dropping as it passes where you stand.

Vinea mea electa, ego te plantavi:
quomodo conversa es in amaritudinem,
ut me crucifigures et Barrabbam dimitteres.


O vineyard, my chosen one. I planted thee.
How is thy sweetness turned into bitterness,
to crucify me and take Barabbas in my place?

2. Jesus takes up his Cross

Remember the carpenter’s bench; the smell of the cut wood. Cedar, cypress, pine, or oak. Light coming through the door. Or an overcast day, with the sawdust trodden down. Remember learning the names of trees: cedar; cypress; pine. He knows how to bend to lift this beam and how to straighten his back. He’s done it before. This is sound wood, and it will bear him. This is the oak of Mamre under whose shade Abraham sat until the three angels appeared. This is the cypress that made the rafter over Solomon’s bed. This is the cedar from the forests of Lebanon, the very image of majesty. This is green wood. He bends and lifts it. And all the trees of the field shall know that I am the Lord; I bring low the high tree, and make high the low tree, dry up the green tree, and make the dry tree flourish. I am the Lord; I have spoken, and I will do it.

Crucem tuam adoramus, Domine
et sanctum resurrectionem tuam laudamus, et glorificamus
ecce enim propter lignum venit gaudium in universo mundo.
We adore Thy Cross, O Lord
and we praise and glorify Thy holy Resurrection
for behold by the wood of the Cross joy has come into the whole world.



3. Jesus falls for the first time

‘My strength is made perfect in weakness.’ It’s one thing to say it, another to witness. The sheer weight of the cross was unexpected, as was the mass of human depravity, ignorance, cruelty, apathy; the sediment built up since before the Flood. A man fell among thieves, who stripped him and left him bleeding. He never said a mumbling word. These are the street sounds of Jerusalem, layers of them, all the various accents and dialects of those come up for the Passover; throat-clearing, street vendors, laughter, excuses, curses. The sound of a slap and a child’s wail. The cattle are lowing, and the sheep and goats bleat together in one herd. Hobnailed sandals scrape the stone. The man falling makes almost no sound.

Popule meus, quid feci tibi?
Aut in quo contristavi te? Responde mihi.
Quia eduxi te de terra Aegypti:
parasti Crucem Salvatori tuo.


O my people, what have I done to thee?
Or how have I offended you?Answer me.
Because I led thee out of the land of Egypt:
thou hast prepared a Cross for thy Saviour.


4. Jesus meets his Mother

Nothing can be said to console her. No one is more painfully aware. A sword will pierce your own soul too. Her son is perfect. He has held her finger in the grip of his hand, she has kissed the soles of his feet. She remembers the day of his circumcision: a bridegroom of blood you are to me. First blood shed since the cord was cut. ‘Who is my mother?’ he asked ‘Who are my brothers and my sisters?’ For three years she stepped aside, now she has come up to Jerusalem. She takes her place by the side of the road of sorrows to see him and be seen in that first long look between mother and child. ‘I now see bone of my bone, flesh of my flesh, my self before me.’ ‘Woman, behold your son.’ She sees the place under his rib where the sword will go. ‘Behold your mother.’

Stabat Mater dolorosa
Iuxta crucem lacrimosa
Dum pendebat Filius.
Cuius animam gementem
Contristatam et dolentem
Pertransivit gladius.
O quam tristis et afflicta
Fuit illa benedicta
Mater unigeniti!
Quae moerebat et dolebat,
Pia Mater, dum videbat
Nati poenas incliti.
Quis est homo qui non fleret,
Matrem Christi si videret
In tanto supplicio?
Quis non posset contristari,
Christi Matrem contemplari
Dolentem cum Filio?


At the cross her station keeping,
stood the mournful mother weeping,
close to Jesus to the last.
Through her soul, of joy bereaved,
bowed with anguish, deeply grieved,
now at length the sword hath passed.
Oh how sad and sore distressed
was that mother highly blessed,
of the sole-begotten One!
Christ above in torment hangs;
She beneath beholds the pangs
Of her dying glorious Son.
Is there one who would not weep,
Whelm'd in miseries so deep
Christ's dear Mother to behold?
Can the human heart refrain
From partaking in her pain,
In that Mother's pain untold?


5. Simon of Cyrene helps Jesus carry the Cross

He didn’t choose to help. He was compelled. With half an eye they could see he was up to the job; he was a big guy up from the south. O Simon from Cyrene, father of Rufus and Alexander, you were the first to take up your cross and follow. Your cross is the cross of forced labour: your yoke chafes and your burden is as much as you can bear. Jesus is walking in front of you, you are hard on his heels. What brought you to Jerusalem? Were you here for the Passover? Going up to the Temple to make the sacrifice and eat the lamb? Pharoah enslaved us and laid burdens upon us, and look, here we are. Blessed are you, O Lord our God, who brought us out of the land of Egypt, out of the house of bondage. You shall not oppress a stranger, for you were strangers in the land of Egypt. You shall not oppress a stranger, for I, the Lord your God am holy. Even here, even in occupied Jerusalem. Your children will praise your name.

Senex puerum portabat:
puer autem senem regebat:
quem virgo peperit,
et post partum virgo permansit:
ipsum quem genuit, adoravit.


The old man carried the child,
but the child ruled the old man;
him whom the Virgin brought forth,
and after childbirth remained a virgin
him whom she bore, she adored.


6. Veronica wipes the face of Jesus

What became of that woman who stepped into the line of traffic and wiped his face with her veil? She will keep this cloth forever because it smells like his sweat, and because it absorbed a little of his blood, and, it may be, tears and phlegm. She covered her hair modestly before she went out; she covered her face so no stranger would see it; she never told her name. She touched him, not with the hem of her garment, but with the whole cloth. Consider what this means, and whether you’d have dared do it. Without asking, she unveiled herself to wipe his thorn-crowned face. He is printed in molecules of blood and sweat. ‘Thy face, Lord, will I seek,’ we say, and through her came to see his face and live.

Plange quasi virgo, plebs mea,
ululate, pastores, in cinere et cilicio
quia veniet dies Domini magna et amara valde
.
Weep like a virgin, my people,
howl, keepers of the flock, covered with ashes and wearing hair-shirts,
for the great and very bitter day of the Lord will come.


7. Jesus falls for the second time

Does his foot hit a stumbling-stone? Maybe one of the Stolpersteine standing proud of the road on the way to Golgotha? Or does he fall beneath the burden of our sins? Not ours. Mine. He falls the second time because of me. My fault. I put out my foot and tripped him. What can I say? I couldn’t resist the temptation. The work of an instant. He was looking so pathetic, I couldn’t bear it. The whole crowd needed a pratfall to relieve the tension. For my sins, I couldn’t bear his sorrow. So he fell for my sins? That’s about it. In the sweat of thy brow shalt thou eat bread by the roadside, watching him fall and be hauled back onto his feet. Remember, thou art dust and to dust shalt thou return.

Caligaverunt oculi mei a fletu meo:
quia elongatus est a me, qui consolabatur me:
Videte, omnes populi, si est dolor similis sicut dolor meus.

My eyes are darkened by my tears:
For he is far from me that comforted me:
See, O all ye people, if there be any sorrow like unto my sorrow.


8. Jesus meets the women of Jerusalem

The daughters of Jerusalem are crying, genuinely crying. They are office cleaners, night shift nurses, shopping cart women, security guards on the Métro, clerks in bodegas, nail artists, students, policewomen, sex workers, all their wet faces turned up; a river of faces. Do not be afraid. When you are living in a world of lies, hearing the hard truth is a comfort. Well, you don’t need to be afraid any more. It’s good to see the truth and know it for certain, that Love, unimaginably vast and powerful, eternal, magnificent, working wonders; is infinitely vulnerable to rough handling.

Filiae Hierusalem, venite et videte Christum cum coronis qui coronavit eum
Dominus in die solemnitatis et laetitiae.

Daughters of Jerusalem, come and see Christ wearing the crowns with which the
Lord has adorned him on this solemn day of rejoicing.


9. Jesus falls for the third time

O felix culpa! Happy fall! Don’t you see? Jesus falls because he comes down to us, and always has, and we are there on the ground looking up. He came down to be among us. He lowered himself to the ground with becoming gravity, gravity which he himself had created. Willingly accepting the accidents of our nature, humbling himself, going into exile. This falling is a blessing: he touches the earth and blesses it. Jesus, there he is, on hands and knees among the broken vessels. He gathers grace. What he made he can mend, even what we have marred. Holy Jesus, full of grace, you emptied yourself for our sake to fall broken by the stones of your own city. However low I fall, let me not fall far from you.

O vos omnes qui transitis per viam:
attendite et videte si est dolor sicut dolor meus.


O all ye that pass by the way,
attend and see if there be any sorrow like to my sorrow.


10. Jesus is stripped of his garments

They part my garments among them and cast lots upon my vesture. His mother wrapped him in swaddling clothes and laid him in a manger, and from that moment to this Jesus has never been seen naked. Do you see him now? Or are you distracted by the soldiers gambling? Or wondering about the seamless garment? None of you shall approach to any that is near of kin to him to uncover their nakedness: I am the LORD. We have stripped our Lord naked as the day he was born. Jesus is shivering. His knees are skinned like a child’s; his back cross-hatched with blood, like a slave’s. Are you ashamed that your eyes are drawn irresistibly to the centre of the picture? You want to see, see for yourself, despite yourself. You want to see the organs of generation, the sign of full humanity, vulnerability, and covenant. You want to see Jesus naked as Adam in Paradise, naked, but woefully battered by the Fall.

Astiterunt reges terrae,
et principes convenerunt in unum,
adversus Dominum et adversus Christum eius.
Diviserunt sibi vestimenta mea,
et super vestem meam miserunt sortem.
Insurrexerunt in me testes iniqui,
et mentita est iniquitas sibi.

The kings of the earth rise up,
and the rulers take counsel together, against the Lord, and against his anointed.
They parted my garments amongst them;
and upon my vesture they cast lots.
Unjust witnesses rise up against me, And iniquity lies to itself.


11. Jesus is nailed to the Cross

Except I shall see in his hand the print of the nails, and put my finger into the print of the nails, and thrust my hand into his side, I will not believe. So much happens so fast once you get outside the city limits. Three men to be crucified and raised up to view. The crowd stands back, nervous to the point of laughter. Where are the friends that followed him? There’s one. And there are the muffled women. The nail sinks into flesh, descends through tendon, bone, wood. And another. And another, and the rich, ferrous smell of blood. The man knows what he’s doing. This will hold. ‘If you are the Messiah, get down from your cross,’ cry the priests and the officials. ‘If you’re the Messiah, save yourself and us,’ Gestas says out of the corner of his mouth.

Ego clamavi, quoniam exaudisti me, Deus:
inclina aurem tuam, et exaudi verba mea.

I have called upon thee, O God, for thou shalt hear me:
incline thine ear to me, and hearken unto my words.


12. Jesus dies on the Cross

He humbled himself, and became obedient unto death, even the death of the cross. ‘I sin every day without repenting, the fear of death disturbs me. Lord, remember me when you come into your kingdom.’ Jesus replies somehow, turns his head, makes the connection. ‘This is the truth. Today you shall be with me in Paradise.’ Then, after a few more words, the last breath rattles out, and his face changes. Later they said that that the sun was eclipsed, the veil of the Temple torn, the dead rose from their tombs. Maybe so. Isn’t it enough though that he died? He shrank somehow into himself. The eyes became jelly, the mouth hung open a little, the skin of his face went yellow and grey. Jesus of Nazareth. King of the Jews. One soldier, the one not occupied breaking legs, pushes up with his lance, an iron willow leaf fixed on a pole. The leaves of the tree are for the healing of the nations. Thick blood and thin water splash over his feet onto the ground. I can see it all.

Tenebrae factae sunt, dum crucifixissent Jesum populi: et circa horam nonam exclamavit Jesus voce magna: Deus meus, ut quid me dereliquisti? Et inclinato capite, emisit spiritum.

Darkness fell when the people crucified Jesus: and about the ninth hour Jesus cried with a loud voice: My God, my God, why hast thou forsaken me? And he bowed his head and gave up the ghost.


13. Jesus is taken down from the Cross

Pilate gave permission. Why not? He had nothing against the Nazarene, who was in any case, dead. And Joseph of Arimathea knew how to ask such a favour. Joseph was hauled out of the pit by his brethren. Jesus is taken down from the cross by Joseph; by Joseph, by bald-headed Peter, by Nicodemus, who’s stopped being worried about appearances, Two men on ladders, one with the pincers to pull out the nails. Gently. Not that gentleness matters to him now, but not a bone shall be broken. This is not the kind of work we’re used to. Let’s get it done before it’s too dark to see. Gently now, before rigor mortis sets in.

Salva nos domine vigilantes
custodi nos dormientes
ut vigilemus cum Christo
et requiescamus in pace.
Custodi nos, domine, ut pupillam oculi:
sub umbra alarum tuarum protege nos.

Preserve us, O Lord, while waking,
and guard us while sleeping,
that awake we may watch with Christ,
and asleep we may rest in peace.
Keep us as the apple of an eye:
hide us under the shadow of thy wings.


14. Jesus is laid in the tomb

Before sunset and the appearance of the first star in the sky, just before the beginning of the sabbath, two men enshroud a body. Never have they done this work before. Though well-versed in the laws and traditions involved in the task, their hands lack skill. Wash the body. Lay it out. Fetch the clean linen cloths. Fold the shroud like this, and the other cloth over the face. In every fold, pour spices. Spices and more spices; myrrh and aloes. Thou wilt not give thy holy one to see corruption. Jesus never hesitated to touch the dead—the widow’s son being carried out of Nain for burial, Jairus’ little girl laid on the bed while the mourners wailed outside. Every touch tells them: Jesus is dead, as dead as earth. They know when one is dead and when one lives. While still inside the tomb they pray: ‘Blessed and praised, glorified and exalted, extolled and honoured, adored and lauded be the name of the Holy One, blessed be He, beyond all the blessings, and hymns, praises and consolations that are ever uttered in the world; and let all say, Amen.’

Nico Muhly, born in 1981, is an American composer who writes orchestral music, works for the stage, chamber music and sacred music. He’s received commissions from The Metropolitan Opera: Two Boys (2011), and Marnie (2018); Carnegie Hall, the Los Angeles Philharmonic, the Philadelphia Orchestra, the San Francisco Symphony, the New York Philharmonic, Wigmore Hall, the Tallis Scholars, King’s College and St John’s College, Cambridge, among others. He is a collaborative partner at the San Francisco Symphony and has been featured at the Barbican and the Philharmonie de Paris as composer, performer, and curator.

An avid collaborator, he has worked with choreographers Benjamin Millepied at the Paris Opéra Ballet, Bobbi Jene Smith at the Juilliard School, Justin Peck and Kyle Abraham at New York City Ballet; artists Sufjan Stevens, The National, Teitur, Anohni, James Blake and Paul Simon. His work for film includes scores for The Reader (2008) and Kill Your Darlings (2013), the BBC adaptation of Howards End (2017) and Pachinko (2022). Among his concerti are works for violin, (Shrink, for Pekka Kuusisto), organ (Register, for James McVinnie), viola (Nadia Sirota), two pianos (In Certain Circles, for Katia and Marielle Labèque) and his vocal collaborators include Iestyn Davies, Renée Fleming, and Nicholas Phan. He has collaborated with visual artists Maira Kalman and Oliver Beer, and has created site-specific pieces for the National Gallery, London, and the Art Institute of Chicago, and written articles for the Guardian, the New York Times, and the London Review of Books. Recordings of his works have been released by Decca and Nonesuch, and he is part of the artist-run record label Bedroom Community, which released his first two albums, Speaks Volumes (2006) and Mothertongue (2008).

Alice Goodman was born in Minnesota in 1958 into a Reform Jewish family, and educated at Harvard and at Cambridge University. In 1985 she was approached by the director Peter Sellars to write the libretto for John Adams’ opera Nixon in China, a work which is now recognised as one of the major operas of the twentieth century. Another collaboration with Peter Sellars, John Adams, and choreographer Mark Morris produced The Death of Klinghoffer, which premiered in Brussels in 1991. This opera recounts the execution of the wheelchair-bound Jewish passenger Leon Klinghoffer by Palestinian terrorists on board the Italian cruiseliner Achille Lauro in 1984. Klinghoffer drew, and continues to draw, acclaim – and vocal condemnation from some quarters – for its sympathetic and humane portrayal of both the victims and perpetrators of political violence. In1991 Goodman also translated The Magic Flute for Sellars’ production at Glyndebourne Festival Opera. More recently, Goodman has collaborated with the composer Tarik O’Regan on a cantata, A Letter of Rights, in 2015 for Salisbury Cathedral, with Peter Sellars and Benjamin Bagby on Fauvel at the Théâtre du Châtelet (March 2022), and with Nico Muhly on The Street, Stations of the Cross for harp soloist, reader, and choir (April 2022). In 1990 Goodman was accepted into the Church. She studied theology at Boston University School of Theology and Ripon College Cuddesdon, and was ordained in the Church of England in 2001. Since 2011 she has been Rector of three parishes in Cambridgeshire. Alice Goodman’s libretti were published as a NYRB Classic in May 2017, under the title History is Our Mother.

Parker Ramsay has forged a career that defies classification. Whether premiering, rediscovering, or transcribing, he dedicates himself to expanding the harp’s repertoire, bringing the instrument to conversations — and audiences — it had never before known. Ramsay has given solo performances at Alice Tully Hall, the Miller Theatre at Columbia University, The 92nd Street Y, the Phillips Collection, Cal Performances, Shriver Hall, IRCAM, King’s College, Cambridge, the Spoleto Festival USA, and the Center for the Art of Performance at UCLA. He has collaborated with ensembles such Mark Morris Dance Group, Apollo’s Fire, and the Van Kuijk Quartet, and has undertaken residencies at the University of California, San Diego, Princeton University, and IRCAM.

Ramsay’s 2020 recording of Bach’s Goldberg Variations was praised as “remarkably special” (Gramophone), “nuanced and insightful” (BBC Music Magazine), “relentlessly beautiful” (WQXR), and “marked by a keen musical intelligence” (Wall Street Journal); he celebrated the album’s release with a performance at the Phillips Collection in Washington, D.C. His latest album, released in October 2022, features The Street, a new concert-length work for solo harp and text by Nico Muhly and Alice Goodman, which premiered at King’s College, Cambridge in April 2022 and received its U.S. premiere at the Spoleto Festival USA the next month. Since then, Ramsay has performed The Street throughout the United States and United Kingdom, most recently with new choreography by Mark Morris Dance Group.

A fierce advocate for new harp music, Ramsay premieres pieces which explore the frontiers of his instrument’s capabilities. In May 2025, he debuted at New York City’s 92nd Street Y with a slate of works written in his name: the world premiere of Aida Shirazi’s A Dream Within a Dream for harp, voice, and live electronics; Marcos Balter’s Omolu, commissioned in 2021 by Columbia University’s Miller Theatre for their podcast series Mission: Commission; and Artun Çekem’s 2024 HARP (Haptic-Adaptive Remembrance Processor), which harnesses a custom touch-based interface to synthesize its operator’s live input in real time. In the 2024-25 season, he made debuts at Utrecht’s Gaudeamus Festival with Lucy McKnight’s when i am among the trees (written for a custom-built harp-organ pipe-percussion instrument); in Dublin with a new evening-length harp-and-voice work by Connor Way and Iarla Ó Lionáird; and at Montreal’s Salle Bourgie with the Quatuor Van Kuijk. In 2023, Ramsay made his Paris debut with Josh Levine’s Anyway, the culmination of a yearlong residency at IRCAM. In April 2025, he chronicled his commissioning efforts in a guest essay for The New York Times.

Equally comfortable on modern and historical harps, Ramsay co-directs the New York period-instrument ensemble A Golden Wire with viola da gamba player Arnie Tanimoto; they tour the United States extensively, having appeared at The Metropolitan Museum of Art, Aspect Chamber Music Series, Chatham Baroque, and Bach Ascending. He has presented talks, performances and lectures on period instruments at The Metropolitan Museum of Art, Carnegie Mellon University, and the Royal Academy of Music, London. As a writer, he has been published in The New York Times, The Washington Post, Early Music America, and VAN.

In the 2025-26 season, Ramsay reprises The Street at the newly-reopened Frick Collection in New York. Also in New York, he returns to the Kaufman Music Center for a solo harp-and-harpsichord recital centered around new works by Georg Friedrich Haas and Christopher Trapani, and to The Bohemians, Brooklyn Public Library, and Aspect Chamber Music Series with A Golden Wire.

Raised in Tennessee, Parker began harp studies with his mother, Carol McClure. He served as organ scholar at King’s College, Cambridge before pursuing graduate studies at Oberlin and Juilliard. He lives in New York City and is pursuing a Ph.D in historical musicology at Columbia University.



A Golden Wire, Concert January 16

Friends,

On January 16, A Golden Wire returns for an evening of Elizabethan music and verse celebrating the warmth and glow of the season’s turning. Moving from Twelfth Night to Candlemas, consorts and lute songs will celebrate the quiet wonder of Epiphany in Tudor England.

Guest artist: Karin Weston, voice.

Read our latest piece for Early Music America, previewing our concert.

Friday, January 16 at 7pm at The Church of Saint Luke in the Fields in the West Village. All are welcome to join us after the concert for a reception in the parish hall.

Click here for ticket purchase.
$30 General admission.


Quodiblet

A Friday with Frescobaldi

The organ at church has been on the fritz off and on for a little while. Perhaps to the titillation of my microtonal oriented colleagues, the digital portion of the organ has been tending to overcorrect town to A432 (thanks to a faulty temperature sensor on a 4’ principal pipe) while the pipes have been hovering around 438 or so, rendering unspeakable beatings and effects that even I find a little hard to stomach when trying to play a hymn for the congregation. The silver lining of consulting the technician about the repair is that I learned of the instrument’s capacity for manual alteration of pitch and temperament. That’s right: while the pipes on the organ can sit at normal concert pitch (or something approximating, depending on the weather), I myself can take matters into my own hands, crank up the digital stops to say, A455, set the temperament to meantone and zone out with some seicento music therapy on a Friday afternoon. Why? Well the sounds of wildly tuned sharps make certain triads feel like expansive spaces of discomfort, longing to be stretched out before falling into a consonant harmony, making good the etymological root of word “cadence” (in Latin, cadere, “to fall). The bumps in pitch make one stop and pause from time to time, as those perpetual endless lines which seem malicious and endless on a piano become naturally disjointed and independent.

The last few weeks I’ve been focused on reviving the Goldbergs on the pedal harp as I’m set to play them for in mid-December in New York and West Palm Beach. It’s an interesting exercise this time around as I’ve not really touched them for two and a half years. They seem to fall off the fingers (the kinetic memory is still there) but naturally I’m wanting different things from them now. Once upon a time, I had liked making them precious and careful, but lately I’ve been into applying Occam’s razor to allow myself to step on the gas and get on with it. It’s perhaps not totally surprising. My activities in hardcore early music (on period instruments, in temperaments, replete with fussy ticks and pauses) have wound down as I’ve focused more intensely on chamber music and new commissions. I’ve also been traveling a lot more to perform and becoming increasingly focused on reliable reproducibility and ironing out inconsistencies. Performing was already tiring, and I was tired of being tired when I played.

Existential corrections are perhaps on the horizon. I’m presently mellowing out (with wine) to 80’s French synthwave, yesterday I had some spicy Machaut bleating through my headphones at the gym. As for this morning, I practiced some Buxtehude continuo on my baroque harp before meeting a presenter about pulling together a program of Bach and Frescobaldi for 2026. The idea was to highlight Bach’s return to the seicento and his longstanding affinity with Frescobaldi’s Fiori Musicali late in life (if Carl Phillip Emmanuel Bach’s testimony about his father’s musical journey is to be believed). The evidence is strong: Frescobadi’s techniques of treating Gregorian chant quotes as foundational micro material for fugues turn up all over Bach’s music; hexachordal fugues recall the extended Fantasias on Frescobaldi; the open score format of the ricercars in The Musical Offering, nod towards the Frescobaldi’s own publication conventions; and even the form of the Clavier Übung III seems to mirror Fiori Musicali, in devising an entire mass (be it Lutheran in this case) for a solo organist to perform in dialogue with sung liturgical music. Arnie Tanimoto and I have our work cut out for us showcasing the connection in a way that’s tangible and audible for the audience.

After the meeting, I was kind of eager to get back into the Frescobaldi and see what was there, but I was also looking for an excuse not to head back to the harp and practice any number of pedal changes and ill-suited fingerings, or generally confront the fact that the modern pedal harp for all its beauty, makes Bach unnecessarily more difficult to play. Counterpoint is especially prone to muddiness, and at times it feels as if there’s scarcely time to focus on the canons, as the bravura movements have to played with the the customary 8 fingers which harpists use (as our pinkies are too short when the hands are set up and pivoted toward the thumb). Indeed, I have memorized the Goldbergs but cannot seem to make it through the final variation, the famed Quodiblet, without consulting a score. The two folk tunes layered on top on one another always feels to dense by that point in the performance, by which point my brain and arms are fried after 30 movements/60-ish minutes of G major (with the occasional foray into the minor). 

Today in the organ loft, I would say that I was happy as a clam, except that I was in fact borderline clapping like a seal as I revisited the astonishing material embedded in Fiori Musicali. Whereas the organ was at one point in my life the workhorse and the harp was the therapy instrument, the tables have turned a decade after my decision to divert career paths. The harp is now the tool for practicing, while the organ is for relaxing. I flip to the back of the volume and find the Bergamasca, Frescobaldi’s one of only two pieces that is unattached to the liturgical material that makes up the rest of the volume. It also bears striking resemblance to one of the folk tunes which Bach sets in his Quodiblet in the Goldbergs.

And what’s more, is that motivic material from La Girolmeta (which appears just after the Bergamasca in Fiori Musicali) is used as the secondary melody.

And to boot, they are both in G major (as are most settings of the Bergamasca, such as that of Bach’s teacher Dietrich Buxtehude, who himself composed 32 variations on that very theme). 

Apart from being confronted by my procrastination, I’m also confronted by yet one more Easter egg left behind by the great master. For while Clavier-Übung III contains no extra little movements at the end, Bach has seemingly saved them both for one at tale end of the Goldberg Variations – originally published as under the title Clavier Übung IV in 1741 (an apt year for publication one might say, as Bach’s own copy of Fiori Musicali dates from 1714.)

I don’t like being trite, but Bach renders me a sap. Over and over, you can find these wonderful reminders in his music that no journey really ends, but seemingly gets extended in different forms time goes by, with elements of our past gently rearing their head to remind us not only where we’re headed, but where we’ve started. 

(But also that I should go practice.)

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What I’m reading:

Napoleon the Great /Andrew Roberts (reading currently)

Bismarck’s War / Rachel Chrastil (just finished – great account of the plights of civilians during a short but intense war.)

Selling Sex in the Reich: Prostitutes in German Society, 1914-1945 / Victoria Harris (reread prompted by a conversation recently about the sexual practices of SS officers in the 1930s.)

What I’m hearing:

Rosenmüller Sonatas / Musica Fiata

Bella Donna / Ensemble Apotropaïk

Korngold / Das Wunder der Heliane (various)

NTS Guide to 80s French and Belgian Disco Pop

What I’m drinking:

Milan Nestarec / Umami / 2021

Marcel Deiss / Alsace blanc Complantation / 2022

Quentin Bourse / Rouge / 2021

What I’m cooking:

Onion tart with leeks, capers and anchovy

What I’m ordering:

Pizza from Sotto La Luna


Feigning It

I have a new office. Not in the “I have a new site-specific gig which I call my office” sense (as classical musicians tend to post on social media when they play in recital halls or other concert venues), but an actual office under lock and key, replete with desk, several harps, some furniture, and an air-conditioning unit. For the first time in a while, I have a dedicated place to keep most of my things and rehearse. Sure, my harpsichord is in Cleveland and one of my harps remains in Paris. I’ll sort out the former in the coming weeks, while the latter is preferable as I’ve got to scoot back to Europe now and again for rehearsals and concerts.

Indeed, my office is not in Paris, but in Queens, just one stop from Grand Central on the 7 line. A church position came open, the likes of which I had before Covid. I play the liturgies, yes, and am thus afforded the luxury facilities so as to keep my head down, work on the artistic projects, and be afforded some financial stability that doesn’t involve playing in an orchestra. At present this little oasis is a mess. Metro cards from 5 cities are piled up next to my passport and a customs form on one side of my desk, while the other side boasts two iPads and a decrepit MacBook Air whose tortoise-like speed reminds one of the 2 train crawling uptown on nights and weekends. The sofa boasts a velvet harp case, a yoga mat, and two empty Amazon Prime packages. The floor is strewn with ripped-up pieces of cardboard, miniature hair clips and dreadlock cuffs in preparation for a little workshop tomorrow with composer Hannah Kendall (whose solo I’ll be playing in just a few weeks in Utrecht).

The morning has been spent trying to optimize how to hang hairclips off of harp strings. It’s a delicate balance trying to secure their position on each string (so they don’t fall off when I pluck) while maximizing each of their potential for engaging a bitone (an effect whereby a string can produce two clearly audible tones simultaneously). The dreadlock cuffs need to wrap around strings securely enough so that their metallic materiality can be heard without choking the string and stifling their resonance. A strip of cardboard torn from a Costco shipment box of Tide detergent is weaved through the wire strings on the harp. I’ve now gone through four strips, trying to remove layers within the cardboard so as to reduce the density just enough so that when it’s threaded through the strings, it allows multiphonics to sing without creating too great a thud. The latest incarnation is bright orange with a picture of two pink roses towards the end, just below a reminder of the bottle size reading “101 Loads!” (Happy belated Pride, everyone.)

I have notes, but they are not to be used to set anything in stone. The harp I’ll be playing in the Netherlands will come with its own acoustic idiosyncrasies and manners of behaving when prepared – all part and parcel of the process of presenting contemporary music that intentionally incorporates random elements and improvisation. When one takes it upon themselves to work in contemporary music with an unwieldy instrument, a lot of time is spent preparing for the processes of preparation. Logistics with harps are not tiresome, but they are not simple either. 

Take my entire program I’ll be playing for the Gaudeamus Festival in the Netherlands. 

(1) Saad Haddad – Tasalsul II

(2) Janet Sit – And then they woke up (for harp and electronics)

(3) Kennedy Dixon – and around we go

(4) Hannah Kendall – Tuxedo: Diving Bell 2

(5) Lucy McKnight – when I among the trees 

The assignment was to ensure that an hour-long program could be filled, all with relatively new works by young composers (with an eye towards EDI in the repertoire selection). 

(1) requires a light scordatura (a fancy word for an alternate tuning system), but it can be adjusted in a matter of seconds. 

(2) requires no retuning or preparations but only amplification, and a face mic. 

(3) requires no scordatura and no preparation, BUT does require that external devices be used on the strings as well as a face mic.

(4) requires preparations but no retuning.

(5) requires extreme preparations, retuning, amplification and a face mic. 

Now this program was arrived at based on the harps that I could reasonably get a hold of. One harpist would allow preparations on their harp, but not scordatura. Another would allow light scordatura, but no preparations for fear of damaging the strings (which are costly). No local harpist would allow their harp to be used for the piece (5), as the extremity of preparations increases stress on the soundboard by as much as 15% and requires the instrument to be placed in a close setup with pots, pans, and other external instruments. The risk of cosmetic and structural damage is actually not as high as one might think, but that’s easy to say when it’s not your harp.

The rehearsal process for all of these pieces entails getting to know the preparation schemes well enough to reduce the margin of error as far in advance as possible. After all, I fly to Paris on a Monday. I retrieve my own harp Tuesday and rig it up. I drive it to the Netherlands on Wednesday. I source a second harp on Thursday morning in advance of a 4-hour tech run in the afternoon. I source a third harp on Friday morning in advance of the three-hour dress rehearsal in the afternoon for the 5 o’clock show. Strike-down is at 6, and all three harps have to be out by 7.

Hours are spent sorting all this out on the computer. It’s not just processes dealing out flights, rental cars and parking accommodations that one has to make time for, but extra hours spent with music notation software to make things more legible on the fly. What the composer and harpist want to see are sometimes very different things, and it’s not out of the ordinary to create bespoke editions to ensure things go smoothly. Checklists for packing are essential; for instance, one of the two suitcases has to sport a complete set of strings, a drill, a harp regulation kit, a collapsible music stand and a folding harp trolley, as well as all the various charges and electronic accouterment necessary for hopping from the US to set up shop (albeit temporarily) in the EU. 

No, none of this is practicing. And to this day, a specter of anxiety hangs over me about it. In conservatories, we’re taught that in order to prepare, our asses need to be in the practice room. At Oxbridge, the humanities tripos makes it clear that we should read as much as humanly possible. And yet, I cannot recount the number of times I’ve heard old classmates from Cambridge tell me, “I wish I had read less and just thought about the material more and reorganized it on my computer.” Likewise, my colleagues in the music world all increasingly speak of how organization and planning supercharge the practicing process, allowing time for essential slow practice that can’t be replaced and eliminating the fussy hours spent dealing with ill-formatted editions, writing unsuited to the instrument and fealty to the printed page.

Technology has supercharged our efficiency but it has also increased our expectations of what we can achieve. And it is thus that I don’t particularly like to watch the Olympics. Years of preparations, countless injuries and vast sums of money go into events where athletes have to contend with the idea that it might not work. And for the audience, that’s part of the thrill. An old classmate from Juilliard remarked that classical music isn’t so different, offering that the Goldberg Variations are sublime, but more audiences are turning up to see the wire-walk and that fantasy that it can all go wrong. “People pay money to see you fuck up.”

It’s hard to explain how these words stuck with me over the last few years, as I’ve done everything in my preparation processes to hide any sense of loss of control from audiences. Last June, I gave a concert in Paris in the first week of my struggle with ulnar tunnel syndrome. I had smacked my elbow a week before on a wooden music stand and had lost sensation entirely in the ring and pinky fingers on my self hand. The piece I was principally on stage to perform was one I had worked on for five months straight, following on an intermittent workshop process spread over two years. But the sense of terror about performing it was not as unbearable as my colleagues finding me after saying, “You looked so relaxed and in control.”

Another toxic trait of the classical music education system is that the practice room is like a confessional, a space intended to be secretive. It’s supposed to sound bad, sure, but nobody is supposed to know about it or learn anything about it. Sharing the realities of what goes into making something good is considered vulgar or exhibitionistic. Personally, I discovered this on day one at Cambridge when my sponsor flew from the East Coast to walk with me on the lawn at King’s straight after my matriculation ceremony to tell me one thing: “Your job here is to make it look easy.” The idea isn’t to fake it, but rather to feign it. Competency is not what’s at stake, but rather a Victorian addiction to poise.

I personally find it stifling, as I secretly love knowing about what goes into making something nice, even to the point of dissecting a process to the point of vulgarity. When I’m in Paris, I return over and over again to Gustave Caillebotte’s Floor Scrapers at the Musée d’Orsay, which show undignified process of stripping a floor of its varnish. They’re half naked, working in the heat and window is closed. There’s a bottle of something present, but only one glass (perhaps the voyeur). The scraper in the middle has made more progress than the other two. There is enough incongruity to counter the classical perfection of their bodies and a significant undertone of homoeroticism. The revelation of such crude labor poses as many new questions as it answers.

While performance anxiety wanes over the years for any musician, the generalized anxiety about keeping up the pace tends to grow, especially in the face of the reality that our bodies can’t do what they once did when we were teenagers or in our twenties, bashing our heads against the wall as we practiced for up to 6 hours a day. There’s no solution, really. One literally has to fuck around to find out if it works and increasingly just be at peace with the fact that – contrary to our teachers’ admonitions that the outcome of all performances rest solely in our realm of responsibility – all we can do is our best, and that for every solution we find we will undoubtedly find five more problems in need of solving.

Of course, we’re going to push ourselves. That’s never been a question. And we don’t need to exude stress as we perform or prepare. But we can treat all that we do with humor and anticipate that the things that will go wrong can be funny if we let them. After all, I’ve given world premiere with an audience member carried out by EMT services (and yes, I was instructed to keep playing). I’ve played an outdoor concert where my harp slipped in pitch by a quarter tone in half an hour. I’ve had to transpose an entire work down a tone in performance when the singer came in in the wrong key. I’ve had to move a harp in NYC gridlock during UN week, taking seven hours to get from the West to the East side of Manhattan for a rehearsal. Sure, I played my best, but fate had other plans.

The chaos in my office is not whimsical, but portentous of the chaos that will ensue when I hop on a plane in a few weeks. I expect a delayed flight, traffic jams and an inability to find parking. I look forward to seeing whether or not the harps will cooperate and that if tech run will take much longer than anticipated. Without a doubt, my hotel room will not be able to fit a harp (much less three). I am under no illusions that any serious practice or rehearsing will take place in the five days leading up to the concert. Time is now being spent making sure that when all of it happens, that I can try to have a good time and ensure that in the event if things go wrong, the relaxation isn’t feigned.


EMA: On Programming

Greetings from the road, en route to Pittsburgh. I was very glad to talk with Debra Nagy, Zachary Wilder and Nicholas Russotto to talk about… well, you’ll see.

Read my article here.

And a little announcement! Golden Wire is now being sponsored by Fractured Atlas. Translation: we can accept tax-deductible donations! So if you like what Arnie Tanimoto and I up to, lend some support. More info about projects soon to come.

https://fundraising.fracturedatlas.org/a-golden-wire


Purcell

I repeatedly hear how lucky I am to have landed on my feet in Paris, how the quality of life must be unimaginably higher, and how my relocation must have significantly improved my access to culture. Such was the case last night as I sat on a couch in Fort Green at a most excellent old-fashioned gay boy birthday party. Deviled eggs, meatballs, and expensive cheese nourished a motley assortment of struggling musicians and actors (including three token heterosexuals, one of whom now lives in my old room in BedStuy).

I heard a host of well-meaning assumptions about what life in France is like. “Free healthcare” came up numerous times (I should note that while healthcare in France is cheap, it’s certainly not free, especially for those making a lower/European income); “kinder to culture” was thrown around (to an extent, this is true, but only for specific varieties and brands of culture as locally defined by the powers that be); better food (French food and pastries, absolutely but I’m afraid the Indian and Mexican restaurants leave me wanting); “political consciousness” came up (even though Europe’s activists all now look to the American BLM movement and institutional commitment to EDI as the gold standard to a certain kind of progress); “anti-American” mentality was a more curious one, as indeed life in France looks very different from life in New York, while every French person I have met has expressed admiration for the typically American nihilism of work addiction and refusal to accept things for what they are (after all, the French are whiners while the Americans are doers, according to conventional wisdom).

One companion on the sofa told me that for all the gratitude I expressed gratitude, I was surprisingly forthcoming in shedding light on what was wrong with the place — or, at the very least, to ensure everyone that it wasn’t perfect. I suppose this is a place where I am still a New Yorker, in that while I find perfection appealing as a classical musician (obsessed with the minutæ of performing), I find it unspeakably dull as a person. 

I recently traveled to Switzerland, which is arguably a paradise, as the quality of life and the average GDP are both astronomically high. But the unimaginable thrill I got from attending a political rally in Basel for the election of a public official was fantastic. It was there I heard perhaps one of the most excruciating musical sequences of my life, watching 25 or so frumpy Swiss gauchistes (replete with dreadlocks and terrible clothes) attempt to sing numbers from Paul Simon’s Graceland, led by a woman dressed like Dionne Warwick on a spaceship (singing about a quarter-tone sharp). They concluded their set, at which point a group of about 15 city officials walked on stage with drums and piccolos, playing military tunes with a level of inaccuracy that tickled me in the Summer Heights High region of my lower abdomen. At last, the cleanliness of the streets and the beauty of the architecture betrayed a total lapse in aesthetic awareness, allowing me to bask in 20 minutes of music that can only be described as “you had to be there to understand” level shit. 

In Gstaad, the natural beauty was overwhelming, as was waking up every day to step out on the balcony and take a deep breath of Alpine air or heading home in the evening to see the snowy mountains of the Saanen Valley glow in the moonlight. Again, I’m grateful the place is not perfect, as an assortment of 1% inhabitants (and wannabes) make for some of the most bizarre dinner companions imaginable. Like in New York, no conversation can avoid the topic of money, but the commodities sought with vast sums of capital at one’s disposal are notably archaic (chalets, priceless art, old cars, concertos for famous soloists, etc.).  

This week, I’ve returned to New York for three months for concerts, and for the first time since the pandemic, I feel at peace with New York’s imperfections. It’s snowing today in Boerum Hill, where the peaceful sight of the powder lining the Brownstones is complemented by the sounds of honking, the presence of yellow snow, and the knowledge that everything is going to take longer and that your clothes are going to be useless by tomorrow.

But, it should be said, I’m also unstressed about the musical engagements I have coming up. In Paris, I’m acutely aware that my practicing routine is sacred and leads to bouts of anxiety and hyper-fixation, cured by the ability to take a walk on the Places des Vosges, grab a pastry from a grotesque and decadent patisserie, and maybe pick up a cheap paperback to see if (1) I can understand what I’m reading and (2) if I wish to continue.

I’m split between two lives in two cities and two modes of being, which (for the moment) serves me fine. I’m presently contented to sit at an infuriatingly anonymous (and overpriced) coffee shop in Brooklyn and procrastinate on practicing while I blog and decide how I’ll structure my afternoon of:

  1. Practicing.
  2. Conducting an interview for a magazine.
  3. Pay surge pricing for my harp to be moved in an Uber from the West Village to Boerum Hill and eventually practice. 

I’m also supposed to put the final edits on some program notes for a concert I’m performing in a few weeks. Purcell’s music is the meat of the program, and I’ve been thinking of ways to contextualize his music without creating a program that is either essentially a musicology thesis or themeless/amounting to a random assortment of songs for a colleague to sing. I spent the bulk of the notes talking about what exactly Purcell does in The Blessed Virgin’s Expostulation, a song I have vivid memories of hearing the first time when Elin Manahan Thomas gave a recital at my boarding school in the UK as I turned pages for the pianist. 

Purcell has a fantastic talent for soliloquy and intertextual allusion. Songs like Music for a While feature an ominous and chromatic ground bass to show how music doesn’t have to make us feel good but satiate and stupefy feelings of unease and jealousy. In it, the fury Alecto lays in waiting to take vengeance, though not too soon.

More comedic songs like Mad Bess of Bedlam use comedy and slapstick to illustrate the ravings of an inmate in an asylum. Triple meter dances and rapid pattering of text are sung by poor Bess, who thinks of herself as a contented Eurydice (though not by name) left behind in the fields of Elysium after her lover fails to rescue her.

But in the Blessed Virgin’s Expostulation, a persistence of recitative reveals the chronically worried mind of Mary, whose son has been missing for three days. Like in Mad Bess, she never mentions herself by name or that of her son. But again, context offers clues: she fears the wrath of Herod again (which forced her flight into the Egyptian desert, a place “safer than a tyrant’s court”); she recalls how the Angel Gabriel informed her of her pregnancy and was heralded as a mother of God. And yet, it is not enough. Her sense of doom is summed up in the final sentence:

 I trust the God, but oh! I fear the child. 

The song ends without direct reference to its actual conclusion. After three days, she and her husband Joseph find him teaching in the Temple: 

… sitting in the midst of the teachers, both listening to them and asking them questions. And all who heard Him were astonished at His understanding and answers. So when they saw Him, they were amazed; and His mother said to Him, “Son, why have You done this to us? Look, Your father and I have sought You anxiously.” And He said to them, “Why did you seek Me? Did you not know that I must be about My Father’s business?”

Mary and Joseph find their son, only to be rejected by him, being informed that he has another true parent. The story continues

But they did not understand the statement which He spoke to them. Then He went down with them and came to Nazareth, and was obedient to them, but His mother kept all these things in her heart. 

Hence, Mary’s soliloquy not only details her distress at losing Jesus but hints at the perpetual sense of isolation she will feel for the rest of her life: that of being barred from passing further into the realm of motherhood.

The song is heartbreakingly beautiful, but perhaps more so if one knows the story – or, indeed, any of the stories that constituted the cultural knowledge bank of Purcell’s day. I am generally underwhelmed with most program notes, as they usually only provide biographical information about the composer or how the piece was published. Similarly, I struggle to engage with programs that only seek to situate music in a particular context as it relates to other musical artifacts that smell like one another but bear little in common regarding thematic or textual material. I much prefer to find ways to liberate music from a certain set of assumptions, and instead relate the stories and set up a common framework between the listener and composer as much as possible, not to show how the same stories turn up repeatedly, but to display how differently a poet or composer might interpret them over time, and how emotions themselves can be subject to historicization. Sure, that means more talk about books, classicism, the Bible, etc. – artifacts of culture from which art music cannot be isolated. When I take this approach, I generally find out that context is messy and uncomfortable and ultimately more interesting as it doesn’t fit the musicologist’s addiction to citing names, dates, and places. Is it a perfect historical account? No. But it stands a greater chance of getting a listener to engage with the content of the music rather than the simple phenomenon of the fact that it’s old.

**I suppose this is where I offer a shameless plug for a concert or two. If you’re interested in hearing a bunch of Purcell and some music of his forbears and colleagues, come to Manhattan on Feb 8.**

https://www.aspectmusic.net/loves-sickness

I gave myself a 1500-word goal for today’s blog post, with no pretensions of composing anything worthy of publishing anywhere other than where my friends come and read about what’s on my mind (even if that means spewing a stream of consciousness).

À demain.


Debussy (again)

for Kendall Briggs

In the last year, I’ve once again attempted to “leave” New York. And yet I’m sat on the corner of Waverly and Gay in the West Village, writing in exactly the same spot where this slightly disastrous blog began. My harp lives on the Upper West Side (as harps are fairly easy to source in Paris), my stuff lives in a storage unit in Brooklyn, I pay rent in Paris. My billing address for my online subscriptions seems to alternate between three or four legal addresses I’ve had in the last 5 years. My life is scattered, chaotic and I increasingly answer the question “where do you live?” with the honest answer “I don’t know.”

What I do know is that I’ve “checked out” of New York to a certain degree, or rather I’ve come to experience my old haunts without any feelings of baggage. I stood on the corner of 72nd and Columbus for a while today (where I’d lived with an ex) and I struggled to find those emotions which had made even going back there so hard once upon a time. I noticed which businesses had changed, which dogs were the same, which of their owners had gained weight. I looked into my old office on West 69th Street and I was happy to see that it was no longer mine. There was different art on the walls, better lighting and a new inhabitant (an old colleague in fact).

I’ve been told in times past that such feelings are a result of age, and that the process of returning becomes easier and more lighthearted. “Checking out” isn’t giving up; it’s resigning oneself to the reality of change and the inability to control where life goes, and learning to enjoy where it takes you in the process. The twists and turns, be they mundane/unnoticeable or unexpected/jarring are increasingly navigated with poise, ease and a realization that they are what makes life interesting.

If there’s any way in which I’ve checked back in, it’s returning to a place where I see life reflected in music. The personal upheavals of Covid were such that I intentionally insulated my musicianship from my life experience, trying to avoid seeing metaphors in my music making or transplanting my own issues into a practice session or a collaboration. Everything was too uncertain, so I gave up trying for a while. I’m glad to say that such has changed as I’ve started teaching again, attempting to find ways to communicate to students about how minutiae and minuscule changes in a piece of music are not to be overlooked, but to be devoured as they are breadcrumbs left behind by composers we’ll never have the chance to meet.

In a recent masterclass, a student played a transcription of Debussy’s En bateau from the Petite Suite. Everything was more or less in place: fluid technique, an even sound, a sense of sweep in some of the gestures. What lacked was a sense of direction – or rather, a demonstration of constant wavering between stasis and motion which gives the sense that one is in a boat, adrift and subtly out of control. One might call it the absence of direction.

As much as any teacher will try to avoid it, the opening bars of a piece become the obsession point in a masterclass, and I’ll own up to not working with the student on much else. Debussy gives us the Barcarolle arpeggio in G major, but it stops in midair. What next? It repeats in the next bar in the relative minor, with the melody line leading the listener into a reiteration of the first bar back in G major before heading back to e minor for another go. How many times is he gonna do this? There is some relief, as we hear a D in both the melody and the bass – a dominant chord, finally… except that it’s a D minor chord which repeats itself not once, twice or even three times, but FOUR times before giving way to a modulation to C major.

The piece is in G major, but that key relationship between D major and G major has not yet been exhibited at all, as not a single chord has included that absolutely essential F-sharp which should resolve to a G. It is in C major that we are given that initial satisfaction, the point at which we also hear that barcarolle arpeggio go and and then come back down again, reinforced by a plagal cadence (indeed, more F natural in a piece in G major) after.

Bar 12, the F chord becomes an F-sharp diminished chord. There’s hope. Might G major’s rightful place might be yet established? Nope. That F-sharp becomes a dominant in disguise and we are treated to four soupy bars of B major, which trail off into literal nothingness.

A tertiary relation drags us back to G major and the material from the beginning rears its head again. Or does it? The melody is now in thirds. And that E minor chord now has an ugly D-sharp in it, which nevertheless gives way to a Lydian C major, though a little earlier than before. At last, at bar 23, Debussy gives us what we want: D major and G major harmonies. An A minor seven chord gives us a lovely modal secondary dominant, and a C natural to connect to a D Major 7 chord – but with a melody in the bass to almost give us what we want: a perfect cadence.

The more I’ve been teaching, the less I’ve become focused on dealing with students’ hands, their tone or their “sound” (whatever that means). Instead I’ve become obsessive with trying to show students that the infinite details left behind by composers, the false returns, allusions to memory and constant denial of the expected isn’t for nought: all of these infuriating lost illusions are the very building blocks for drawing an audience in. They are in fact gifts which composers give performers to hold audiences in the palm of their hand and transport listeners out of themselves, their own lives and indeed, their own expectations.

Once identified, these subtle details pose the questions that we have to answer. What speed? How do we suspend the ideas in midair? How do we breathe on an instrument that resonates into infinity? How do we pose the questions to the audience that only we can solve?

Seeing beyond the score also comes with age and experience. The finger patterns, the anxiety over accuracy and dogged attention to making things as black and white as they appear on the page isn’t just unappealing, but rather simply impossible. We also learn that when we sit down to play, the slight human variations in volume, warmth or depth have to be accounted for, welcomed and responded to. Perhaps a chord was played too deeply. How can you compensate for it in the moment? How can you go with the flow and recalibrate?

I admit to loving the overwhelmed looks I receive from students, as perhaps I haven’t yet recovered from the 15 years of studies I undertook with Ur-pedagogues who handed me fingerings, tempos, phony aural traditions and a sense of authority which aimed to instill competency, though little more. One teacher assured me we ought to see a work from “Debussy’s standpoint,” which in fact meant just using a fingering that she’d been handed by her own teacher and maintaining a metronomic pulse. I asked her jokingly if I could have Debussy’s mobile number and ask him myself, as she appeared to know him quite well. (She didn’t laugh. The lesson ended early.)

Of course, students have to be shown standards, but what of the standards of giving students a glimpse as to how they will have to make the decisions for themselves? What of the reality that once we’re out of school, we’re on our own (thankfully) on the water, be it on the sea or up shit creek without a paddle? That our technique has to keep with it? And our tone? And our sound? What of the glorious and exhilarating relief that we all feel when we return to a piece years to find that it’s different, charming, and even liberating to play? And what of the utter terror they will face in looking at a student one day and telling them that making decisions will be harder than any one piece they master at school?